HUNTA-897 The teenage son is horny for his father's newlywed wife

My father passed away and I live with my mother-in-law, but my life is still very difficult. I was in love with her mother-in-law, and her mother-in-law directed her insatiable lust towards me just for sex with just the two of us. I knew that it was the most immoral act, but I can not stop. And vaginal cum shooting is considered an additional sin. Even wild parties with friends. Is it allowed to indulge in sex to fill the void in each other's hearts day after day?